During the Easter Season I'll be bringing you gems from St. Faustina's Diary, after reading it for Lent.
Diary of St. Faustina, 1486Many times we act like St. Peter when he tried to walk on water. He wanted to walk on water and Christ permitted it. For as long as he was focused only on Christ, he walked on water no problem. It was only when he took account of his environment that he sank with the grace and dignity of a stone. He took account of the wind. He remembered that the human body isn't capable of walking on water. It isn't supposed to happen. We are supposed to sink into the water instantly. The devil says the same about us. The devil says that we are not capable of returning to Christ and restoring our life with Him. It isn't supposed to happen. We are supposed to remain in sin. Sin is the life we have chosen. We have a right to remain in this sin. This is our life. We can do as we choose with it. Other people need to respect our choices. If someone wants us to return to Christ and re-establish our relationship with Him, they are just being conceited, wanting other people to live the way they tell them to. They are trying to force their delusional opinion on others.
My child, all your sins have not wounded My Heart as painfully as your present lack of trust does that after so many efforts of My love and mercy, you should still doubt My goodness.
If we are praying for conversions, we have our whole environment against us telling us that we are wrong, just like how St. Peter had his whole environment telling him that he was wrong; that it wasn't possible to walk on water. He did for as long as he trusted in Christ and stayed focused on Christ. The more he trusted in Christ and focused on Christ, the easier it was. He only failed when he didn't trust and didn't focus. The less he trusted, the harder it became, until he sank and nearly drowned. We must learn from his mistake. We have to trust in Christ, being confident that he will grant our prayers and provide for us. We need to focus on Him and ignore the world. The world only wants us to fail in converting souls.